The end

Let me first start off by saying I met a woman who made me want to do better…. Never ever felt ANYTHING like that type of love. Surreal… I felt I was unworthy and always wanted to know y me?! Why me?! I regret the day I ever started back communicating with my ex. Thinking I could be friends…… Being friends has truly cost me the love of my life…. My soulmate…. The homie lover friend people talk about I had that and now it’s gone….. I don’t know what to do……. I’m lost…. Time heals but won’t ever replace….. I can’t even write…. I want to smoke but if I do I know I’ll cry… I don’t want to sleep…. I miss her already…. I miss what could’ve been but I was too afraid to let go…. I let her in to a place where I never let anyone else before… I just needed more time… To understand what exactly was happening. Waiting for the most awesomest dream to be over… But it was real and now it’s gone….

I started writing this: but…. It sucked. I’ll let the emotions reach an all time high before I can write about it…. Even still I’m posting the bullshit that….. Whatever. My world is over….. The end…. I pray I find someone who’s half the woman she was to me m my life… Fit me like a glove…. Man or woman… I welcome….

I lied… To protect…. I don’t know… I thought… Understanding there was…. Trust no more…. Empty… No more… can we start over?

could it be? Happiness found me?! really? Surreal…. Unworthy… Doubt cost me…. Infinite pinkies…. U were my ‘brain’…

Capt save a…. Not hoe but…. ‘Friend’ maybe?..

Karma…. Show your face sooner than later…. I’m ready… No choice… Face(d) the music that once was but no longer exists… I’ve lost u… My life will forever be empty bcuz I lost the one that truly made me whole… She has no idea how she’s impacted my life because I ‘chose’ to unknowingly sabotage what could’ve been…. J. Holiday said it best with “suffocate”..

Peep:

Now even though I try to play it off
I’m thinking about you all day long
And I can’t wait for shorty to come through
From your lips and back up to your eyes
My hands on your hips when we grind
I’m fantasizing bout what I’m gonna do to you
Got me fiening for her love can’t lie
Man you should see how she got me
Spending all this time with her
And I couldn’t leave her if I wanted to
Her love turns men into fools
Tell me what a man is to do

Cause I can’t breathe when you talk to me
I can’t breathe when you’re touching me
I suffocate when you’re away from me
So much love you take from me
I’m going outta my mind
I can’t breathe when you talk to me
I can’t breathe when you’re touching me
I suffocate when you’re away from me
So much love you take from me
I’m going outta my mind

Whenever we up in this bed
And my fingers fall in your hair
I wonder if you feel me watching you
Cause I can’t go a night without your loving
Got me looking at this phone
Every time it rings I hope it’s you girl
You got my bracing for your love
And I fallen for you I can’t lie
I just wanna be with you
Yes she got me there I said
And somebody call the paramedics
Tell em to hurry up and come through

Cause I can’t breathe when you talk to me (can’t breathe)
I can’t breathe when you’re touching me (when you touch me)
I suffocate when you’re away from me
So much love you take from me
I’m going outta my mind (I’m going outta my mind)
I can’t breathe when you talk to me
I can’t breathe when you’re touching me
I suffocate when you’re away from me
So much love you take from me
I’m going outta my mind

Don’t ever leave me girl
I need you inside my world
I can’t go a day without you
And see nobody else will ever do
I’ll never feel like I feel with you

Cause I can’t breathe when you talk to me
I can’t breathe when you’re touching me (when you touch me)
I suffocate when you’re away from me
So much love you take from me
I’m going outta my mind (I’m going outta my mind)
I can’t breathe when you talk to me (oh when you talk to me)
I can’t breathe when you’re touching me (I can’t breathe when you touching me)
I suffocate when you’re away from me
So much love you take from me
I’m going outta my mind (I’m going outta my mind)

Oh no no I can’t breathe
Oh no no I can’t breathe (I can’t breathe)
Oh no no I can’t breathe oh no

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